mercurial scribe

Today I am topping out at my heaviest ever. Like, heavier than my previous “heaviest ever”.

215.2 lbs. 42.6% body fat (that’s nearly 92 lbs of JUST FAT). 40DD-46″-46″.

I keep making excuses. My meds (they suck), the worker’s comp induced depression, the stress of moving. When is enough simply enough? (more…)

Though the moving process has been a relatively fluid experience and living with my mother has proven to be much more intrinsic and normal than certain people had estimated, I have been a mood swing maven. Blame the bright sun or the re-restart (no, that isn’t a typo) of meds, but whatever you do, don’t remind me I only seem to be feeding the savage beast with sugar and distraction.

In an attempt to keep my sense of humor from souring too much, I will relate my story in the order in which I relate to (more…)

Alas, they sum up my will competing with my head…

`But I don’t want to go among mad people,’ Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can’t help that,’ said the Cat: `we’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.’
`How do you know I’m mad?’ said Alice.
`You must be,’ said the Cat, `or you wouldn’t have come here.’
Alice didn’t think that proved it at all; however, she went on` And how do you know that you’re mad?’
`To begin with,’ said the Cat, `a dog’s not mad. You grant that?’
`I suppose so,’ said Alice.
`Well, then,’ the Cat went on, `you see, a dog growls when it’s angry, and wags its tail when it’s pleased. Now I growl when I’m pleased, and wag my tail when I’m angry. Therefore I’m mad.’
- Alice in Wonderland

Will write more soon, though when is a question of the hour…

Guess who’s back online?

Though I’m still swamped with boxes and am only 1/4 of the way through unpacking, I have returned to you, my Internet Lovelies. Expect a few entries later this weekend!

the Scribe

Before I entirely disappear for a week, I found this Personality Survey and it was quite interesting…
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