Hi, I’m Fat
Today I am topping out at my heaviest ever. Like, heavier than my previous “heaviest ever”.
215.2 lbs. 42.6% body fat (that’s nearly 92 lbs of JUST FAT). 40DD-46″-46″.
I keep making excuses. My meds (they suck), the worker’s comp induced depression, the stress of moving. When is enough simply enough?
Every time I review these previous weight loss attempts, I notice a common thread: my heart - and thus my will - wasn’t really into it. I was distracted, I wanted comfort food or my mood swings more than my healthy, lean body.
You know, when I was younger, I never worried about my weight. I liked my thighs, my tummy, my arms. I was tan, athletic, energetic and happy with what God gave me. My metabolism was high because I was very active… walking and marching (band) and acting and babysitting. I remember shopping at those cute boutique stores in the mall… I was a size 8 or 8/10 then but mostly because I’m tall and broad. I even remember when I would buy guy’s jeans… at 32-34 so they’d be baggy. Ah, those were the days.
And I want them back.
If you know me, then you know the next sentence:
Aerobic exercise is out due to my injury which means my diet MUST change. Think the lower carb, high protein, low-cal.
The goals:
1. Reach & maintain 145 lbs
2. Lose at least 14 inches off of my waist (from the current 46″)
3. Once I’m healed and lose the weight, complete a marathon
The plan of daily intake:
1250 - 1500 calories
100 - 150 g of carbs
20 - 50 g of fiber
50 - 150 g of protein
I will accomplish my daily intake by eating only fresh fruits and vegetables, lean proteins - turkey, beans, nuts - and no refined sugar. (That last part is the killer.) That means no soda or no fruit juice, even organic 100% goodness. No bread, potatoes or sweets in general (at least for a month). Wow, this all sounds like the South Beach thing, huh?
Well, I’m choosing to commit myself to this. I want to be healthy and happy with my body. And you know what?
I’m damn good at commitment. 
And therein lies my hope. Wish me providence and a will of steel.
June 30th, 2007 at 9:45 am
Hey MS,
I’m rooting for you. I’m on a diet too. Doing the low-carb also. It is daunting but once you hit that place where your determination kicks in, you can do it. After a while it doesn’t seem that hard either. I know you’ll make it.
WC
July 1st, 2007 at 6:47 pm
Happy Canada Day Mercurial…
July 2nd, 2007 at 3:49 am
I wish I could do that. But until I get a LOT more stable….
sigh…my problem is too much food in, not enough energy out.
July 6th, 2007 at 11:02 am
Carnival of Dieting Tips…
It’s Friday, so it is time for a carnival of ideas to keep us going through the weekend. Thank you to all for submitting and let’s not too tempted to stray from the slimness path… Ruby presents How to Lose…
July 24th, 2007 at 12:12 pm
This is exactly what I expected to find out after reading the title m Fat | mercurial scribe. Thanks for informative article
October 9th, 2007 at 6:54 am
hi im not exactly fat n all but i wanna diet lol
March 23rd, 2008 at 7:05 pm
145 is my goal weight too, for now. I weighed 104 all my life until I took a desk job and over the past 28 years the lbs have gradually packed on. 175 says the visit to the dr this past Monday. Chol is sky high, too. I will be 50 in May 2009 and swore I would be down to 145 by then (said that in Nov when I weighed 164) Wish me luck and as I do you….we CAN do this…we WILL do this.
March 25th, 2008 at 2:37 am
Just dont get down about it! That was my biggest downfall, I’ve fluctuated in weight all of my life and I’m currently on my biggest aim so far, it ahs been slow and difficult but I’m getting there! Hope it all goes well for you, I know you can do it, just stay posative and keep your ideal vision right there infront of you so you dont forget why you’re doing this
April 18th, 2008 at 7:55 am
set your goals smaller and work your way to the larger ones this will keep you on track which will inturn keep you motivated