For the past four weeks or so I have been a listless lump of nauseated human lying on the couch. I can barely recall much that’s happened (other than the pee tests and doctor’s visit confirming our pee tests) as it’s all become a blur of “I don’t feel so good…” and catnapping away the pain. Though the Medi-Cal office experience does stick in my brain, mostly because of the DMV-like atmosphere but with less English and more screaming children.
With exception to this past weekend, the nausea has finally started to lift. I can eat small amounts of food until I just feel full. Like the kind of full you are at Thanksgiving when grandma offers you pie directly after your third helping full. Yet, an hour later, I’m hungry again, scrounging around the kitchen looking for a food that doesn’t repulse me simply by seeing it.
Creatively, this has all left me at a great standstill. No one’s very creative while paying homage to the porcelain throne, even this mercurial scribe… (more…)
Turns out there is a reason I have been feeling under the weather for so long and I had gained and lost 10 lbs over the past month or so…
We have a baby on the way!
I am currently 9 weeks pregnant with Baby Holzer, due April 17th! We are thrilled to be parents and the only thing temporarily raining on my parade is the near constant nausea for the past four weeks. Alas, that’s being pregnant (or so I’m discovering).
I will definitely write much more about it later, but I am recovering from a very hard weekend and need some rest. In the meanwhile, yay for Baby!
I’ve been spending a lot of time “resting”. That generally means avoiding positions that aggravate the pain in my leg (which has returned with a vengeance and a mean streak) and that also avoids enhancing the overwhelming nausea I’ve been dealing with for the past three weeks. In this time of “rest”, I’ve been thinking a lot about the various commitments I’ve made for this new year and thought I should probably take a moment to post them.
If you’ve been keeping track, I mark my birthday as the mark of a new year. I re-evaluate, re-center and refocus myself on the things that matter most in the hope that this new year of life can be better than the last.
In this year’s ponderings, I have made a mental list of things that will be changing and items that need attending to. So bear with me as I flesh them out… (more…)
