I am having a really hard time trying to figure out the balance between managing my bipolar, dealing with the aches/pains/fatigue of pregnancy, running a start-up business and running a clean and organized home. The last two (business and home) I know are the plight of so many women, but with the added other two (bipolar and pregnant), I’m just feeling massively overwhelmed.
To be honest, despite my best intentions to work 35-40 hours a week on my career, I’ve had to take a “sanity day” once a week for the past two months. I intended to go on vacation last week, but considering I’ll probably be taking most of April off, I wanted to take advantage of the momentum I’ve got going. (more…)
Dear Miri,
We have officially entered the heartburn zone.
With your growth to 16″ or so and 3.5 lbs, you have taken up all of Mommy’s breathing and digestive space. Eating at a table where I need to bend over to bring the fork to my mouth induces a feeling similar to a defensive line sitting on my chest while I try and swallow. I’ve learned to do the “pregnant plate” where the plate rests on my boobs and I can recline a bit, giving me a bit more breathing space and a small path which allows the food to pass through my esophagus to my stomach. Sweet non-relief. (more…)
Yes, my dears, I was featured in an article in the NY Post in an article called “Baby Got Back - ‘Fat’ Abuse is a Weighty Issue for Full-Figured Women“.
Though Marina Vataj (the writer) didn’t use my quotes of how supportive my Husband was through the weight gain or how he helped me come to terms with it since it was gained mostly from my bipolar meds which aren’t going away. (I specifically remember him holding my hands and saying “If you never lose an ounce but you’re stable, I’ll be perfectly okay with it. I love you, ALL of you.”) But these quotes obviously weren’t appropriate for her article.
But how exciting is that? If I had some graphic design know-how, I’d post a little banner in the sidebar with “As Featured in the New York Post” - yes, I am that cheesy!
Dear Miri,
Oh sweetheart, what a crazy week it has been!
First off, you are now approximately 3 lbs 3 oz and 15.5″ long according to our doctor’s visit last week. I knew you were putting on weight! In fact, Mommy got scolded because I had gained 7 lbs in one month… but considering 1) I hadn’t gone to the bathroom yet, 2) I only gained like 2 lbs in the previous 2 months and 3) you gained 3/4 lbs in that month, I’m not worried at all. In fact, I think we’re right on track!
The doctor was also kind enough to inform me you have long legs (big surprise as I’m all legs and 5′7″ and Daddy is 6′1″) and a big head. Yes, a big head. You actually made the doctor - a high-risk obstetrician - say “Wow, she has a big head!”
My birthing canal is not appreciative of this news. (more…)
I will be posting a “Dear Miri” letter later, but to be honest I’m feeling too overwhelmed right now to think much.
My mood has been slipping for the past few days. I’m anxious, exhausted and irritable. I keep finding myself staring at the walls in a depressed haze for unknown amounts of time… I’m just… not doing well. I don’t know if it’s a hormone surge from the pregnancy that will pass pretty quickly or if it’s a breakthrough episode, so Husband is keeping a close watch on me. In the meantime, I’m just going to take it easy and try to ride this out, so don’t be surprised if I’m not here for a few days or so.
Peace.
