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This is my little self-improvement experiment. Here I discuss mental health, weight loss, debt elimination, parenthood, pop culture and generally whatever gets me thinking. Be forewarned, we go for brutal honesty here; however, I do play well with others and so should you.
To the man who carried me through the bad years…
To the man who made me laugh hard and often for the past six years…
To the man who has been my best friend, my faithful lover, my biggest fan…
To the man who gave me my little Squishy and
To the man who loves me, who I know I will spend the rest of my life exploring God’s creation with…
Happy 24th, Husband!
Turns out there is a reason I have been feeling under the weather for so long and I had gained and lost 10 lbs over the past month or so…
We have a baby on the way!
I am currently 9 weeks pregnant with Baby Holzer, due April 17th! We are thrilled to be parents and the only thing temporarily raining on my parade is the near constant nausea for the past four weeks. Alas, that’s being pregnant (or so I’m discovering).
I will definitely write much more about it later, but I am recovering from a very hard weekend and need some rest. In the meanwhile, yay for Baby!
I’ve been spending a lot of time “resting”. That generally means avoiding positions that aggravate the pain in my leg (which has returned with a vengeance and a mean streak) and that also avoids enhancing the overwhelming nausea I’ve been dealing with for the past three weeks. In this time of “rest”, I’ve been thinking a lot about the various commitments I’ve made for this new year and thought I should probably take a moment to post them.
If you’ve been keeping track, I mark my birthday as the mark of a new year. I re-evaluate, re-center and refocus myself on the things that matter most in the hope that this new year of life can be better than the last.
In this year’s ponderings, I have made a mental list of things that will be changing and items that need attending to. So bear with me as I flesh them out… (more…)
In precisely 15 days and 46 minutes I am going to be all of 25 years old.
But instead of the anticipation I felt as a child knowing a big birthday bash was imminent (and thus, presents!), I now become very introspective. Mind you, celebration and reflection are two of my favorite things, so this is by no means an unpleasant state of mind… it’s just that it leads to some often uncomfortable questions… (more…)
Sometimes I feel like life has stolen my most prized qualities - a strong-will and determination to do things of importance. I’ve never been the kind of person who simply wants to exist; the only time I have ever entered “survival-mode” is when my illness was so strong and unmedicated that my life was truly in danger. But I was in that place for so long - nearly from the onset of adulthood to a time not so distant…
A lot of these thoughts have been fueled by a friend’s recent birthday dinner at a little steakhouse in my hometown where we all celebrated her reaching 24. As we chatted and laughed, I thought about how much she has accomplished so young. At 24, LJ has earned her Bachelors in History and is currently working on her thesis in the pursuit of a Ph.D. She works as a T.A. in the History department and an aid in the Entomology Lab. She and her boyfriend of 6 years live together in a cute little house they rent from his aunt. She’s traveled both with her honey and alone, exploring every local historical site she can get to in places like Atlanta, New York, Las Vegas, Seattle, and of course, her hometown.
While I know better than to compare myself to others, it occurred to me how much like her I once was; how much I expected of myself and yet, how little I fulfilled… (more…)
