mercurial scribe

How would a neuroscientist react to having a stroke? Well, Jill Bolte Taylor is grateful.

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Yes, the “mercurial” part has struck again, as it always does.

This is not postpartum depression, people. If I hear that one more time I just may go postal. I am bipolar - this is nothing new to me. No, this is the good ol’ devil of the May blues I’m perfectly familiar with, the same bastard of rage and sadness I’ve known for years.

To commemorate our horrible time together, me and these May depressions/mixed states, I’m making a list on how not to deal with depression as I’ve done with my own special brand of raging sadness. Ahem… (more…)

Every time I experience a series of rocky events in my life, it’s inevitable that someone says to me “It comes in threes, you know.”

That’s always great to hear when only two things have seriously rocked your world. Now add paranoia to the list. (more…)

I am having a really hard time trying to figure out the balance between managing my bipolar, dealing with the aches/pains/fatigue of pregnancy, running a start-up business and running a clean and organized home. The last two (business and home) I know are the plight of so many women, but with the added other two (bipolar and pregnant), I’m just feeling massively overwhelmed.

To be honest, despite my best intentions to work 35-40 hours a week on my career, I’ve had to take a “sanity day” once a week for the past two months. I intended to go on vacation last week, but considering I’ll probably be taking most of April off, I wanted to take advantage of the momentum I’ve got going. (more…)

I will be posting a “Dear Miri” letter later, but to be honest I’m feeling too overwhelmed right now to think much.

My mood has been slipping for the past few days. I’m anxious, exhausted and irritable. I keep finding myself staring at the walls in a depressed haze for unknown amounts of time… I’m just… not doing well. I don’t know if it’s a hormone surge from the pregnancy that will pass pretty quickly or if it’s a breakthrough episode, so Husband is keeping a close watch on me. In the meantime, I’m just going to take it easy and try to ride this out, so don’t be surprised if I’m not here for a few days or so.

Peace.